"Back in the saddle again...."

Wow, last post Oct 19.......can you tell there's not much excitment in my life right now?

Well, I was really disgusted with myself a couple days ago, looking for a dress for the Christmas party for Ken's ship. It was a day of disgust and motivation combined when we found the dress.  I had planned on wearing my red dress with the black lace contrast around the waist, only to find a couple days before that it is too small. Disgust. We went to Ross the day before the party and found a nice teal semi-formal dress for $20 (yay) that confirmed my current dress size.......14. Motivation. As of this summer/fall I was into a size 8 dress that I bought as a "goal size" dress. It fit perfectly, no snug-ness at all. Now my size is most definitely 14. More disgust.

In addition to my disgust/motivation we had family pictures done a few days ago. They were really nice, but unfortunately they busted my brain's ability to trick me into thinking I still look like I did 5 years ago, still have a size 6/8 jean size....ha! ya right :) So yes, more disgust, but at the same time, more motivation.

But, I am "back in the saddle again", doing my workouts, following the meal plans, working on my portion control. It only took me a couple months to go down to that size 8. I KNOW that if I continue to stay on track I can get back down to that size by spring. Just in time to go back to Montana for Ken's deployment where I can get out and walk with Hezekiah everyday without having to drive to a park or a mall.

I have no thoughts that I will be a size 6 like I was in High School. After all, let's face it....I've had a kid and my weight is not distributed the same as it was, nor will it be. But it's not about size, or weight, or even inches. It's about getting and staying healthy. It's about making and keeping a habit.

So....if at first I don't succeed, try try again.